January 31st

I can be very hesitant about letting people into my more intimate thoughts or sharing my goals and dreams with them. I think more than anything it has to do with fear. Fear that people will begin to have expectations of me. Fear of not fulfilling their expectations. Fear of failure. But I shouldn't fear that at all. I personally think I am more likely to pursue my goals and dreams if I tell people about them. And sure, I will fail now & then, but afterall, failure isn't really failure, now is it? It's just learning how NOT to do something, as Thomas Edison said.
I have tried blogging before, but I never really told many people about my blogs, nor did I stick with them. I decided to give it a shot again though. And we'll see how it goes :)
Since I began on the topic of goals and dreams, I'll name a couple of mine:

• I have a dream of owning a shop someday, where I can sell handmade and vintage items. I looove art - in all forms. I also would love if the shop were a bakery/cafe on the side. I currently work at a consignment shop owned by two best friends and I absolutely love the environment. I have been talking about this dream more lately, and by talking about it, I feel more like it's something I can actually do rather than feeling like it only ever could be "just a dream". 
• I want to become a better musician. I love making music. I am not very good at it, but I am starting to practice more. I have been talking to people about doing covers and I have been practicing a bit with some friends from Church. We have been talking about starting a youth worship band. I am gradually gaining more confidence to sing while people are listening. I have been working on writing songs. And over the past few days, I've learned how to play the ukulele a bit. 
• I want to be successful, but in any success I might have, I want to give thanks and glory to where thanks and glory is deserved. Which is to God. I want creativity to be involved in wherever life leads me, and if I am successful in doing so, the credit is not mine, but His. He blessed me with a heart for creativity. I do not want to lose sight of His greatness.

Those are just a few things that have been on my mind lately. And as much as I desire these things, God may have a completely different plan in mind for me. And ultimately, I want to please Him. I have been thinking about my future more as my high school career is coming closer and closer to and end, and sometimes my dreams seem like they would be so much work (which I know they can, would, and will be!) and nearly impossible. But I know if God's cool with it, He'll have my back :) Cuz' with Him, anything is possible! (I just love Philippians 4:13) 

Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. - Matthew 6:34